the way life works has always been something that has intruigued me, as i'm sure it has many of you. in all our curriculum of school years past, we've been taught much about the world and the way it operates. everything follows a seemingly logical path; there is typically a relatively explicit cause and effect to events and occurences. you go to school, you specialize in something, you get a job in that field. you pick up the phone, dial a number, and you talk. you buy a ticket to take the train to get to a set point. cause and effect.
however, i have always been interested in the things that aren't quite so explicit and well-defined in our lives. and i suppose the best thing that would sum that up, would be life itself. i suppose the main question i always find myself desperately searching for an answer to would be, why is life so easy for some, and so hard for others?
you know who i'm talking about, those people who seem have everything go their way, all the time. they could ever ask for, without asking for it: a loving family, a car when they turn 16, a significant other who would do anything for them, amazing grades, beauty, a dream job the instant they begin looking for one...you catch my drift. for these "chosen ones", it seems that things just fall into place when the time comes, and it's just that easy. meanwhile, the rest can only look on, and continue to struggle to make things happen; crappy marks no matter how hard they try, always getting in trouble with one person or the other, insufficient funds, less than gorgeous, can't find a decent paying job for the life of them, get treated like crap at home, and consistently have the door slammed in their face, both literally and figuratively. you get my drift here too.
now i realize i am presenting the extremes of both sides of the spectrum, and each of us has likely experienced different aspects of both of these sides; no one is perfect. however, i do not believe that we are all equal in our triumphs and hardships. i think it's safe to say that some people simply have it harder than others. now assuming that there is SOMETHING greater than us lowly humans, what i've always tried to figure out, was what or who determines whether someone has it so easy, or so rough? what did those people do to deserve what they had in life? are some people really just born lucky? or is there more to it?
reverting back to my cause and effect theory, it seems logical to assume that a good deed performed by a person, would allow them a reward in life...karma, if you will. if you do something bad, then something bad will happen to you. but is this truth? or is the way our lives pan out already predetermined by a destiny of some sort, controlled by a higher being? i definitely believe in "god", but the master plan is still something i'm trying to decipher. i know i often sit back and in pondering any such event in my life, whether good or bad, wonder what i did, or didn't do to deserve this? but is this even a question, especially when these events i ponder are ones beyond my control?
another theory i've always entertained is whether there is a sort of quota of good and bad that one will experience during one's lifetime. what i mean is, if life sucks now for you, and life is comparatively amazing for your friend, will things even out one day? will your life at some point be amazing, while your friend's is comparatively crappy? and will this in the end leave us all with an equal experience of joy and strife?
this is a sort of messy post with just a few, random thoughts from my head to yours. things can ALWAYS be worse, and we should definitely be thankful for what we have...but you have to wonder why we get what we get in life, whether it's a reward or a disappointment.
it's hard to learn from your mistakes when you can't figure out the game.
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